I'm packing my bags and getting ready to board a plane out west later today. Greg and I are going to tackle the Grand Canyon in part to celebrate my birthday, and in part to help me put a bit more closure on the last 10 years.
I can remember so clearly how difficult it was for me to make my back up and out of the canyon the last time I was there. How frustrated I was with how difficult it was for me. How insurmountable the goal of reaching the top seemed at moments of that day.
I had no idea that three days later I would find that second swollen lymph node, or how completely my life was about to change.
I am both excited and nervous to go back to that place. To one of the very few places where I have a distinct and clear memory of life before cancer. I know it will be emotional. I know it will be hard. I know in some ways I will probably find myself grieving the life that was left behind when that trip in 2002 came to an end.
But I also know that I will celebrate where my life has gone. The last 10 years have been crazy. They have been heart-wrenching at some times, and soul-filling at others, and always, always full. There will be so much to reflect on and rejoice in when I return to that place.
Nothing about my life today looks as it did back then. But the way it looks today is pretty darn sweet.
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