Confession time here, folks. I am not a good cancer survivor. I'm an even worse BRCA1 carrier. I couldn't tell you what fruits or vegetables make up the dirty dozen. I reuse disposable plastic bottles. I don't sleep enough. I drink far too much. I don't do self exams. Line me up against all the other women in the world who are trying to reduce their cancer risk, and I assure you I'd be woefully inadequate.
(This is something I'm pretty okay with - I'll fill you in on why as the new year approaches).
I'm headed home for the holidays on Friday and there are three things I can guarantee will happen. 1 - I will locate the hidden stash of Ho Hos in my moms house and go to town. 2 - Paula will order something with "gobs and gobs of molten lava cheese." 3 - Jan will ask me why I run.
Me - I'm going for a run.
Jan - Why?
Me - What do you mean why?
Jan - Why do runners run? I have never seen a happy looking runner. Stay home with me and eat this cheesecake.
He's right. I probably dont look happy while I run. I'm slow. And the first mile always, ALWAYS, sucks for me. But after that first mile, I tend to settle in and enjoy lots of things about my runs. Here's my
All-Time-Top-11 Reasons Why I Run
(Yes, its 11. Stop picking on my list)
11. I love the view of my neighborhood from my sneakers. And of all the other old 'hoods I run through both at home and when I travel. I never fail to notice something I would have missed in the car.
(crazy old sign-post marking the street where I grew up)
10. Because my happiest places are outside. Running gets me out there when my career keeps me from places like this for too long:
9. I like to think my long runs give me extra stamina when I end up on a stage. Which happens more often than you might believe.
(Rocking out with the Remnants)
8. Running gives me a space to think through my cases away from my desk. And if I can get through an oral argument during mile 3, I'm usually confident it'll be cake standing still in a courtroom.
7. Ill admit it -
I run because I like to drink beer.
(And someone put an amazeballs brewery essentially in my backyard)
6. And because
I like to drink wine.
(Acacia - October 2012)
5. I also run because Tim really likes to cook. And I really like to eat. And Tim really likes to use butter.
(Bacon-Wrapped-Turkey? Yes, please)
4. I am one hell of a sensitive girl, and running helps me to process and let go in ways I probably otherwise wouldnt.
3. I have some crazy- athletic friends. Running lets me feel like I almost have enough cred to hang out (and sort of keep up) with them
(Although maybe I shouldn't worry about that, since we're all good at acting like idiots)
2. Because for a year, I couldnt. In the months leading up to my Hodgkin's diagnosis, my endurance was quickly ripped away. And during chemo and radiation I was lucky to make it through a stroll in the market. Every time I run today, whether for a mile or a 10K (I swear someday Ill run longer than that!) I remember the time when I couldn't run and I am so.damn.grateful.
1. Because it puts distance between me and cancer. Its the one thing I know I'm doing to tell cancer to back the fuck off. In my mind, each mile increases the space between us. And while I dont generally advocate running way from problems, a second cancer diagnosis is one problem I'm happy to high-tail it away from.
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